{"id":11013,"date":"2021-06-24T13:46:27","date_gmt":"2021-06-24T18:46:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/priestessyourlife.com\/?p=11013"},"modified":"2021-06-24T14:30:58","modified_gmt":"2021-06-24T19:30:58","slug":"full-moon-in-capricorn-commitment-to-self","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/priestessyourlife.com\/full-moon-in-capricorn-commitment-to-self\/","title":{"rendered":"Full Moon in Capricorn: Commitment to Self"},"content":{"rendered":"

Welcome to this upcoming Full Moon moment, at 3\u00b0 Capricorn<\/strong>, exact on:
\nThu 24 Jun, 1.39pm (CDT)
\nThu 24 Jun, 7.39pm (BST)
\nFri 25 Jun, 4.39am (AEST)<\/em><\/p>\n

And Happy Solstice<\/strong> as well!<\/p>\n

Had a beautiful time camping with friends over the weekend, we made these \u2018prayer flags\u2019 to mark this seasonal moment (Summer Solstice for us), creating a set for each of our campsites!<\/p>\n

An easy, satisfying activity, that I am filing away for next year…<\/p>\n

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CUSTOMISED TIME-CAPSULED WISDOM
\n<\/strong>My Solstice reflections have been dominated by this second Saturn-Uranus square<\/strong> that just happened (on Jun 14\/15).<\/p>\n

I finally got around to reading over my journals from Feb 17<\/strong> (when the first pass happened). Sure enough, there was great food for thought there, entirely relevant to my current experience, suitably \u2018illuminating\u2019 for my Solstice moment!<\/p>\n

How about you, what was arising for you in Feb?<\/i><\/p>\n

Back then I had a huge insight around how I project untrustworthiness onto other people<\/strong>, but actually, I\u2019m the one who\u2019s not backing myself and speaking up for what I need, and therefore, I\u2019m the one who\u2019s \u2018untrustworthy.\u2019<\/p>\n

Whoa, that was a total reframe!<\/em> 😊<\/p>\n

I tried to document this lightbulb moment as clearly as I could, cos I knew I\u2019d be cycling back to these old relational patterns and perpetual dilemmas<\/strong>.<\/p>\n

Sure enough, I find myself in a similar place right now, projecting untrustworthiness onto my partner, and going to extreme efforts to distance myself from his disturbing differences. (What do you mean, you\u2019re considering getting the vaccine, largely due to peer pressure?!!!)<\/i><\/p>\n

On the exact second pass, after butting heads over our COVID responses for a while, we decided to take our autonomy <\/strong>to the next level, and make more room than ever before for each of us to live true to ourselves, facing less than ever before judgment from each other.<\/p>\n

On paper, that intention looks pretty good, eh. Admirable, even. And it is.<\/p>\n

But I need to make sure that I\u2019m not doing some kind of spiritual bypass<\/strong>, shirking my personal work of articulating what I want and need<\/strong>, and sharing what the implications of our differences are, for me.<\/p>\n

I jump to distance and disconnection<\/strong> as a way of navigating difference<\/strong>. I give up on negotiation, often unconsciously, and roll directly with (resentfully and resignedly) accommodating the other person\u2019s disturbing opinion\/action.<\/p>\n

Martyr-ish. Fatalistic. Rageful. Uncreative. Shut down.<\/p>\n

I can track that back to childhood<\/strong>, of course. There wasn\u2019t much room to disagree, in my family of origin, and, at the same time, much disagreement happened and was rarely resolved in nourishing, win-win ways.<\/p>\n

Doesn’t mean I need to stop there, though! Thank gawd for neuroplasticity! And the transformation power of time!<\/em><\/p>\n

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PAST SELF GIFT
\n<\/strong>So here\u2019s this Solstice moment, where I find myself gifted with the invitation to not fall into this same relational hole, thanks to the diligent documenting efforts of my Past Self. (Thankyou SO much, Past Self!!)<\/em><\/p>\n

It\u2019s funny how mental\/rational I have to be, to course-correct towards a different way of being. It\u2019s like the possibility hardly fits in my head! I have to spell it out<\/strong> for myself.<\/p>\n